Out of frustration this morning at work I wrote this letter to myself:
Today, Wed. June 1, 2016, I have officially become fed up with working as an employee. I promise myself that I will and must get myself out of this situation, quick, fast & in a hurry. This isn’t the life for me by any means. I hate the way it makes me feel to leave my house daily to go do work that I care nothing about. I’m not fulfilled at all – not at all. Today is the last day I complain about this situation because I can change this situation! I have the power, the knowledge, the resources, the funds and the creativity to change my situation for the best! i promise by this time next year I will have 10 titles published on Amazon in the supernatural suspense/mystery genre! I have to start doing things differently if I intend to see different results. I need to be committed to the outcome…committed to the results I want to see. If I keep letting fear & other things distract me, I’ll be a working slave for the rest of my life. I refuse – I refuse – I refuse – I refuse to continue to let someone else dictate how I spend my time…when I eat lunch…when I get up in the mornings…when I go to sleep at night…when and for how long I can go on vacation…I refuse! This is not the life God created me for. I am born to do greater things. I am born to thrive, to soar, to live continuously in abundance & prosperity. I am born to change lives, to wake up daily filled with joy & purpose, to enjoy my career & the way I make a living daily.
I do not accept the lie that I can’t make a living as a creative writer. Not only can I make a living but I can live comfortably, in peace & in abundance. Quality of life is very important & right now I don’t agree with the way my life is being played out before my eyes. I’ve invested so much time & money into these trainings & so-called “business” coaches this year & I did not see a good ROI. Thousands of dollars wasted this year on that but what I learned is this: if they are not in your specific field or industry doing exactly what you intend to do…if they are not wealthy or at the income level that you are trying to get to…doing exactly what you intend to do….then DO NOT INVEST IN THEIR PROGRAMS OR TRAINING etc. AND definitely do not invest in someone’s anything out of fear of missing out on information because what you are supposed to know you will be provided with that information without losing money in the process. I truly believe that. Also, do not trust so easily. Just because people say they are Christian does not mean they will lend a helping hand….even if you did buy their program or product.
I have put myself in this situation, now I have to get myself out of it. Don’t let 2016 be a repeat of 2015. Make this year count! Make the suffering & the tears & the anger & the frustration that I’ve endured (and may still endure) count! I have what it takes to be a successful creative writer. I have what it takes to manage my work life & personal life with ease. Nothing is too hard for me! I am strong in mind, body, & spirit. I am the child of the greatest creator & He has given me the mind to create. Holy Spirit works in me & through me to bring out my best creative ideas so that I can live a purposed & fulfilled life! I believe in MYSELF!
I have come from the bottom, many things & people have tried to stop me, despite not being given many opportunities in life, I have still kept pushing & striving for better. To be & have better and I have to applaud myself for that. One day I will live the life of my dreams.
NO WEAPONS FORMED AGAINST ME SHALL PROSPER!